Being afraid and jumping anyway!

Its been a moment hasn't it?

Honestly though, I don’t know about you, but I have thoroughly enjoyed the down time this pandemic has given us if I am being honest. To deepen in and connect, to continue connecting with others and to find solace in the unknown that still lingers on in our world.

How fascinating it has been to witness this shift in our world, the stop, the start, the hate, the crime, the doubt, the fear, the sadness, the madness and then to see the rise of compassion, vulnerability, faith, courage and strength for our overall health and justice for human beings in this diverse world we live in.

Luckily, I have been able to stop and take a moment to let it all sit in and ask myself, “Is this all really happening”? Sad but true. I am devastated by the current events that continue to unfold and I am praying for peace and equality and health protection.

As I took moments to reflect and ask myself “Is this all really happening”, I also took that question, not only to our world around us, but to my life, in particular my career and the work that I am “really” supposed to be doing here on earth.

I asked myself the following questions:

~Was being bold and brave enough to speak my truth to my superiors about how I felt supposed to set me free?

~Was being temporarily laid off a sign from the Universe telling me that I am meant for something else?

~Was having the time and space for more expansion, grace and human connection in the plan?

Every time I have asked myself these questions (and let me tell you, it was often) I kept coming back to the same answer.

YES GIRL!

You see, it’s funny and well not so funny because at the time I spoke my truth and stood up for my values and beliefs, all to have my entire reality ripped from under me. And, I was 1000% certain this was a HUGE mistake and that this was NOT supposed to happen.

But it did happen.

So now what?

I surrendered to the unknown (after many tears were shed, conversations were had and belief continually instilled) that there is a reason for this. I may not ever know that reason, but the fact of the matter is, it happened, so what, now what?

I am now all in. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, instead of being fixated on my income being sliced, and instead of continuing to ask myself “What if I didn’t say anything”. I said – F*** IT. This isn’t how I want to experience this one life we all have, this isn’t fair, I am better than that, there is SO much more in the world and there are SO many gifts we all have to offer.

What if I told you that since instilling this belief in myself, that it has completely changed the trajectory of my goals and path at this point, would you believe me?

Honestly, I did not believe me either until I started to listen and take note of the conscious direction in which the universe was directing me in. Its amazing when we lose control and when we let go of control, how much possibility is at your fingertips.

Truth be told, we have no control over our lives. We have control over how we feel and behave. That’s it. There is no one you can control, there is no one who can control you, because you are the master of your life and you get to decide if you’re going to keep fighting the fight or if you’re going to be bold and try something new, learn something new and experience something on the other side that you had no idea was at all possible.

I want you to know that ANYTHING is possible for you. Anything you want in this life is possible if you believe.

I want to leave you with the following thoughts to ponder…

If I try and fail, what is the worst that can happen?

If I do not try, I will never know if I was capable.

You have it within you already… the only way to let it be seen and heard is by jumping into the unknown and figuring it out along the way.

In Love and Light,

Amanda